…I am heading back to Mexico early on May 27. My heart is filled with the love of my dear friends in California…I cherish this bond that goes back so far and so deep. Richard gets back on the 13th of June. I have lots of work ahead of me…let it roll!
Archives for May 2009
…somebody please remind me not to take this life for granted. And so be it…'cuz today I am 62. I am sitting here in the apartment with Richard on this foggy day. We are going out to Marin today to celebrate with friends…it is going to be a long day. Being that it is my birthday…I have turned over a new leaf and this new leaf tells me to watch my tongue…I am feeling a bit weird about this gathering today. Last friday night we went out to dinner with a group…Anado had a martini and two beers…quite out of the blue, one of my friend starts a conversation about how Anado had forgotten her birthday and had not acknowledged her at the wedding of Anado and Richard….to be quite honest I just forgot…I know I can be selfish…but this was an honest slip of forgetfulness….so I need to take a step back and acknowledge her pain and move on…this too shall pass… as they say! So what happened last Friday was a lesson…remember thyself, Anado…as Gurjieff would say…but while I am reminding myself of myself….Remember those friends that surround me…
…it certainly is a big thing we have going here. Moving across the planet like I did last evening in the airplane gives amorphous definition to that which is mystical and mysterious. When I looked down from above to the cities all lit with traffic movement…houses aglow…neon…halogen…everything lit up like a new kind of jewelry…then the absolute spaces of darkness…the occasional sentinel of light…there was no perspective for me because there was nothing to focus on…it just was…and you know it continues to be…it just is…and it is always changing…I marvel at how much San Francisco has changed since I first came here years ago…I found myself today standing in front of huge cooler or freezer filled with what seemed like hundreds of shrimp ready to be eaten…and gazing at aisle upon aisle of the best food one could imagine and the store was filled with young mothers or professionals and all of us were surrounded by a parking lot filled to the brim with really REALLY big SUV's…I though there was a recession going on? Well maybe not in Mill Valley…. This all confuses me…this world view…because from where is this viewing of the world taking place? Is it similar to that non focal point last night in the airplane? Do I sound confused or just out of focus…like the whole world viewed by millions of different focal points and the only relation is the difference and the absolute inability to define the Mystery in words?
…I just had to include this photo of me in the Mexico City Airport…Patrice gave me this mask for my birthday. Richard just had to calm my "high maintenance ass" down because I could not access the wifi…Goddess Be Blessed for bringing Richard into my life…so I am on my way North…a bit cooled down already in this air-conditioning…Love to All!