Attention Seeking Disorder: The Perils and Preoccupations of ASD…

…I have been in therapy for a number of years.  I have been blessed with a most benevolent and insightful therapist.  He practices what he calls Buddhist Psychology.  Basically what he has emparted to me is that I lovingly revel and struggle in a "Disorder" known as ASD:  Attention Seeking Disorder.  He continues to remind me that when I put myself "out there"  (like now)…many opinions, accusations, adulations and such will be reflected back.  He once jokingly told me that his therapy will be complete when I show up for an appointment in a business suit…Yesterday my friend Carol Jackson brought me back another treasure from her visits to thrift shops in the Deep South of the US…..it is like a major pimp coat taken to the next level…perfect for me:  The Art Pimp…but ya know…even I wondered if I could pull this off in public…so I put on the coat and headed to town…when pulling into the parking lot in San Miguel, who should I spy?  My therapist getting into his car…and after all these years of therapy…I hid..Why?  I don't know…maybe I wanted him to believe that I am on the road to "recovery"…I guess I just have to marvel at the Creature I have created…there are pluses and minuses…I love to adorn…my art and myself…but sometimes the attention is too much and I want to flee to a cave in Tibet…so…ASD has its high points and its perils…..I ride the wave…Life is like a Big Wave…when you catch it…your Sitting on top of the world…if you miss it…time to bury your head in the sand…so the Middle Way is my horizon line…..searching, seeking and questing for the ultimate ride on a perfectly imperfect wave…..