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…there is just this.  Still have not heard about the results as of Monday evening….maybe tomorrow
.  What I do know is that we have been having a great time in Mexico City.  We went out today with Mark Powell and his wife and daughter,.  First we went to Centro Historico this morning with Mark….rode the Metro downtown…hung around.  Then we came back to Roma and met karina and we drove out to the University of Mexico campus to get some DVD's and had some lunch.  It felt great to be in that campus mileu…students and revolution in the air.  Fantastic mosaics adorn the Library…it was such an unusual day.  All we can do right now is say yes to the high and to the low…just one big yes!

We still do not know the results of the biopsy.  I called on Saturday (Richard sitting next to me) and she still had not heard.  She said to call on Monday evening, which is today.  In the meantime we are enjoying Mexico City,  We were supposed to be photographed yesterday by a photographer friend of Mark Powell, his name is Rogelio Pereda.  He is doing a series of photos called Big Faces.  We got rained out.  So Richard, Rogelio, Mark, Karina (Mark's wife), and their kids Agatha and Julian all went for coffee at Carlo's here in Colonia Roma.  It was great fun.  Later Richard and I went to the Jeff Wall Show at Museo Tamayo.  We have now seen Jeff Wall in Munich, SF, and Mexico….Later we walked back to Zona Rosa for a nice frothy movie called Sex and the City…we absolutely enjoyed ourselves…laughed cried…for dinner we went back to our favorite Mexican Restaurant here in Roma, Pozoleria Tixtla… we recommend the Pozole Verde…so here we are…laughing, crying, eating, walking, viewing, riding, asking, telling, sleeping, dreaming, and not knowing…it's called Life…..Love to all!

Well I am in Mexico City today waiting for Beloved Richard to return.  I am typing this post in the lobby of Hotel Milan in Colonia Roma.  We always stay here.  Anyhow, we will call Doctor Blanca today to inquire about the biopsy report.  I wish I could say that I feel like this is a movie and it is happening to someone else.  But that is not the case.  However, I find strength in claiming my life as spedorous and adventure filled.  I have a new suit to wear
now.  I can honestly say that I am embracing the moment as much as possible and the richness of this new experience is so vibrant.  Let us all count our blessings.  All of us…we are lucky.

…lives with the likes of this critter and is blessed by friendships worldwide.  I feel absolutely blessed amidst the chaos of this perfectly imperfect universe that I am dancing in!!!!

Well, Dear Friends, there is nothing like the possibility of having cancer to bring one closer to one's True Nature.  I mean this in the loftiest of senses and at the same time the most ordinary of ways.  Since last Saturday, I have had some very strong emotional visits with myself.  From dire fear to astonishing heights of acceptance.  So say a prayer for small victories and ordinary acts of soul and physical maintenance.  I raise a toast to myself and the fact that I was able to wash my hair today in the shower in tearful ecstasy.  The first washing since they cut that critter out of the back of my head.  I am blessed ten fold by my Loved Ones (both two and four legged…and don't forget our three gold fish).  Gracias Dios,
for this day and the Dixie Chicks!

Last Saturday I went to the dermatologist because I had a bit of a bump on the back of my head.  I had a birth mark as a child.  A mole of sorts and I noticed it had a grown.  I knew about for at least two months (I hope it was that short of time).  Anyhow, the good doctor did not like what she saw and she removed it there and then in her office.  As I write this, a part of me is in Mexico City going under tests to see what it is.  Anyhow, it could be possibly skin cancer and that scares the hell out of me.  At the same time this has become a most profound experience.  Being in the middle of "Not Knowing" has immense merits.  Not only have I been absolutely devastated and scared shitless, but at the same time I have experienced the deepest love on all levels in myself and the response from friends.  I am in Deep Gratitude to this Mystery called Life.  I am posting Lakshmi the Goddess of Abundant Spirit and the Healing Goddess Ganga
…let's hold this healing space not only for me but for all Beings!!!!!